12/28/2022 0 Comments Realstudio 2011 crack![]() ![]() Can I relax into the moment? Can I be with what is? Can I remember that this hard moment won’t last forever? Can I breathe, because my breath is always with me? It is in these times that I’m trying hardest to be present. You are talking to your grandparent on a computer screen because you haven’t seen them in two months. You are holding an entire baby while it cries. You are holding someone’s hand while they cry. You are grieving a deep loss with your whole body. You are losing feeling in your fingers in subzero temperatures waiting for your dog to poop. ![]() Sometimes, even in this present moment, you are very much in pain. The worst fears you have for yourself and your family are most likely unfounded. The things you’re reading about in those comment sections are upsetting, but not literally happening to you in this moment. Many of the things you’re afraid of have not happened yet, and may actually never happen. That’s the trick about being present: it usually forces you to admit that you’re more okay than you think. ![]() In this moment I am healthy, safe, warm (except my fingertips) and wearing very cozy slippers. There’s a warm desk lamp guiding my way as I find these words. I am in the middle of a good book that my sweet boyfriend gave me to read. My puppy is sleeping in the hallway, damp after a big romp in a snowy field. Because the truth is that no matter how disturbing I find it that people I respect and admire are moving closer to radical conspiracy theories every day, no matter how awful it is to hear about the awful harassment and racism at these protests, no matter how divided the world feels: this present moment is actually okay. Or maybe it’s actually a great time to be present. And, in our nation’s capital, a large group of people are currently violently protesting mandates that are literally designed to help us protect each other, ease the strain on our healthcare workers, and help us get through this pandemic with the fewest possible deaths. The temperatures in January were routinely -15C (5F) before windchill for days on end. Bruno is in the middle of his teenage months, which means that some days he’s great on his leash, and other days he’s a wild thing and flat-out refuses to listen to me. The roads are covered in salt, which makes walking the puppy a total nightmare. I live in Toronto, so lately it’s been very cold, dark, damp, grey, snowy and dreary. To be honest with you, this is a very difficult time to be present. ![]()
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